Happy? Sad?

I remember how
I was locked in your arms
And you held me tight
I felt your heartbeat
And looked into your eyes
The flames burnt
It was good
I trusted you

I don't know when
I don't know why
You just walked away
Maybe they are better than me

Now
We don't talk
Though we do things together
Though we sit next to each other
I'm not sure
If I actually knew/ know you
But I know
My guard is up
I must be strong
I'm my shoulder

The flame's turned into ember
You feel cold
You look confused
But you never ask
You never talk
You never text
You never call
No, you won't

I feel nothing from you
And
I feel nothing for you

Should I be happy or sad?
Happy because I could actually let go of everything?
Sad because everything's turned into nothing?

But, thank you. I learned.

You are my deep secret.

I'm not sure what triggered me to write this.